After starring in hit films and belting out chartbusters, Ayushmann Khurrana has now released book, titled, Cracking the Code, about his journey in Bollywood. Funnily, the book is more about his personal equations with people (name dropping alert) and reads more like a personal diary to show off his successes. Modest much?

Not many know that Khurrana was a participant in the singing talent show, Channel V Popstars, which popped out bands like Viva and Aasma. As a participant during the talent scout, he got friendly with one of the winners, Neeti Mohan, who is now a popular singer. Here is how he goes on and on about how amazing they were on the show:

“My group had Neeti and me, amongst the most enthusiastic of the bunch. We not only wrote and composed a song, but also choreographed a dance that turned out pretty well. Since the two of us were the only dancers, we stood out. And we won. The way we bonded, sang and danced, people began to assume there was something brewing between the two of us, despite the fact that everybody knew we were individually in committed relationships. What I felt was this amazing creative energy emanating from her that I latched on to and I feel it was the same for her. It was that wonderful amalgamation of energies that helped us create a beautiful song that won us the round. And then there were others creating waves of controversies.”

"Clearly surprised at being born"

“Clearly surprised at being born”

“The stage has always allured me”

Khurrana was also the Roadies 2 winner. However, he believes that he wasn’t cut out for the show:

 “Some of the tasks on Roadies Season 2 were really crazy. At least they were for me. This one task was really embarrassing where we had to wear only langots (underwear) and wrestle with professional wrestlers.”

“…And another incident which perhaps will not be easily erased from our memories was when Candy stepped out in a bikini. I was a very anxious pillion rider, but I only sat behind Candy because she had a great butt, and I bet she knew the reason and had no issues with it.”

Like many struggling actors, Khurrana also faced difficulties finding a place to stay in Mumbai:

“…This is when I called up another friend, Siddharth Kapathia. He was pursuing MBBS from KEM Hospital, Lower Parel, and he snuck me into his hostel by making me wear a lab coat all day long. And it ended up being a lot of fun! All the doctors became my friends and I became the clown of the hostel.”

"Trying to look as pretty as a girl"

“Trying to look as pretty as a girl”

"My trademark joota hai japani act"

“My trademark joota hai japani act”

As a struggler, he had his fan boy moments. He recounts one such embarrassing incident with Shah Rukh Khan:

“Just the fact that I was breathing in the same air as him was enough to give me a high. I stole a few glances of him shooting and even though I waited for four hours outside his vanity, I didn’t complain one bit; they seemed like fleeting moments. Sitting there, I wrote the world’s most embarrassing letter.”

As soon as he hit the stardom, he had to pay a big price for it. Here he talks about how all the attention made him distant from his wife, Tahira Kashyap , who is also the co-author of the book:

“I didn’t even realize when, at the first public event we attended together, I accidentally let go of her hand as I was accosted by the press. After about twenty minutes of jostling into the flashing strobes did I realize that I was not holding the hand of the person I had come with. When I turned around frantically to look for her, I saw her standing just where I had left her, with tears welling up in her eyes. I felt so miserable. I just wasn’t in control of my life.”

"The gawky teenage years"

“The gawky teenage years”

He, honestly, expresses his disappointment with his first YRF film, something he wanted to do his entire life:

“…I never really wanted to do Bewakoofiyaan. I somewhere assumed that the script would eventually evolve from the first draft I had read. Bewakoofiyaan, being my first film with YRF, didn’t come across as the grand YRF film that I had grown up watching and wanted to be a part of.”

As the book comes to an end, he shares his opinion about the film-making process in India:

“…Suppose Karan Johar liked the script of Vicky Donor and took it to SRK, it could become a ‘My Name is Vicky Donor’ sort of game-changer. The same script when given to, say, Anurag Kashyap, might look totally different…a neo-noir version maybe?”

Let’s just say, Khurrana has a long way to go before he starts penning an autobiography. Give the book a miss unless you are a die-hard fan of this Vicky Donor.